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Saturday, July 12, 2008

its the emo time of the year again...
common test results...
let me start wit wat i got for the subjects b4 i comment...
micro A - A
Inorganic chem - A (91/100)
IPCT - B+
Maths - C
Physical Chem - F
A+ - 90 +
A - 81 n above
B - 71 - 80
C - 61 -70
D - 51 - 60
E - 41 - 50
F - 31 -40
micro a..ok la quite happy for it i knew i worked hard...
inorganic chem..ok quite happy again got 3rd in class and 10th in the whole PS..worked hard also la...
IPCT...dissappointment in the heart..everyone in my class got A except for me Sorry PS0802..i pull down the class standard with my stupid B+... i just dun get it y i did not get A...
Maths -( i just saw a lizard runnin by my side...EEKS!HOLY COW!) ok la quite happy its A maths n i nvr used to pass A maths...
physical chem - the hard punch on my heart...i feel like cryin..i noe i shud have pushed myself harder for this module...i dunnoe y but it realli hurts me.. 1st ipct and now this...
i noe i have to work harder for semestral exams.........thanks eliz n stella for consolin me but its just hard to feel better..onli until i achieve the grade i want i will feel better......
I LOOK HAPPY AND WOULD LAUGHIN ON THE SURFACE BUT UNDERNEATH THIS ACT..IM SOO CRUSHED TAT IF A BLOW SORROW COMES I MAY JUST END UP HAVING A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN....I DUN NOE Y THERE ARE SOO MANY COMPLICATIONS IN MY LIFE..MAY GOD GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO CARRY ON THE CURSE OF A LIFE...
oh just recently i was plannin and imagining how i would carry out commit suicide without makin it look like a commit suicide but instead it will look like an accident and the police will not harrass my family..k here how it will b carry out
details...
venue: infront of hougang point' kopithiam exit, at the road
time: after skool
dress code: slippery slippers (frictionless)
Procedure:
1. buy oreo crush
2. wait at the roadside for a car to b seen durin this waitin period i will act as if im lookin for sth in my bag..
3. i will cross the road and climb the metallic drain slope...
4.wen the car reaches the slope i will purposely slide and fall down the slope straight into the ongoin car..
5. knocked by the car and fly abt 5m off and land on the ground with blood oozing everywhere..
nobody will suspect that i wanted to commit suicide and everyone will think its an accident..
great masterplan rite..just waiting for the day wen i had the biggest blow in my life...
Saddening......
Sandy.
+ [ Sandhya/In journey of being enlightened ] + 5:40 AM